STEFANIE HENN
For me the sentence does not exist: "That's how I am" or "That won't change at my age anymore"."Because you .." or ".. because somehow the outside is , I can't be." are sentences we use to avoid accepting our full responsibility.
How do I get to that?
My life is shaped by the fact that I faced life. During my teenage years I already earned my own money as a dancer, model, choreographer and trainer, and have been behind the camera myself as a photographer for around 11 years - www.steffihennphotography.com .
I have never really been interested in degrees. The true embodiment of ability, being the real deal, that always felt true to me. I can only help others and be a true support if I am just as honest with myself and live what I speak of. I've studied people - and I've had many opportunities to do so through my professional career.
Life was and is my true teacher& master.
I love people and the power of each individual, even if this may not yet be lived to its full potential. To remind people again who they really are, where their real potential is and to go back into the full expression of it, is the greatest joy for me in my life, no matter what area of my work. I consciously use the word "remember" - everything is always there. Deep down, we know exactly what the truth is, what defines us in relation to the whole. How else would you know exactly how to sabotage it ?!
My way of living, trusting that the same power is accessible to all of us - my lived experience - is my guide. Each and every one of us carries a power and quality within us that only he or she represents in this world. The certain piece of the puzzle that makes up the big puzzle.
What does it actually mean - "go into your power"?
In my experience, it means above all taking responsibility for one's life and make responsible choices. To accept again that we are very sensitive beings - whether man or woman - and that we perceive much more than just what is apparently going on in front of us. That we are thereby connected to a wisdom that lets us see that there is so much more than just matter. We live in a world of energy and not in a world made entirely of matter.
But who or what are you really?
I was faced with this question too. Very early on in my life I made the decision to function and to equal the images in the outside world. Fame was the lure. Everything was always focussed on the outside. Either to get myself attention or to isolate myself from the outside, because this way of life was so exhausting.
I played a certain role in every situation - whether professionally or privately. The true Stefanie got hardly anyone - if anyone - to face. I wanted to please, be seen, belong and be recognized. At all costs. Whether through rebellion or talent, manipulation or retreating or the inner self-created struggle. The result was always the same. I circled, around myself, and around me again.
For a long time I had the feeling that that couldn't be it.
Nevertheless I used the outside to make sure I was all right. I was deeply insecure, but to the outside I gave the impression that I had everything under control. I controlled everything and everyone, so that it wouldn't be discovered how unstable I was and how much fear I had inside. And if someone had asked me at that time: I was either "fine" - I fulfilled all the pictures, nobody had to worry and I was convinced that I was "fine" - or I was really "bad" - I just wouldn't have told anyone that, so as not to show any weakness. I was constantly living in an emotional rollercoaster.
The outside always confirmed to me that "..that is normal ".
"It can't be that life is so difficult, unfree and dependent on the outside!" said my inside.
So part of me already knew early that something was wrong with this normal .
Inside me I knew: there is more.
And: it's true! I would be lying if I said that I didn't need any support myself in this development. I have searched for depth for a long time and extensively on the basis of various offers, but without success. Everything I practiced helped me to know more about why I had various reactions / behavior patterns, but nothing changed in my movements & so the root cause was not healed.
In 2008 I came across Universal Medicine. Presented by a man, Serge Benhayon, who through his reflection confirmed in me what I always felt and knew was true.
And this was not done by a magic pill, but because there was someone standing who lived what he taught. Each of my cells reasoned. I came across lived wisdom. The wisdom that I always felt within me ,that was always available to me, just like to all of us. Universal wisdom.
" Everything is energy, therefore everything is because of energy ". (Serge Benhayon)
Absolute honesty and the openness to look at choices that were not so comfortable to look at, which took me away from my truth were crucial. To realize that the wisdom lies within. And the beauty of meeting someone that reminded me of the what is.
Since then I have been living guided by the teachings of the Way of the Livingness - and have continued to educate myself. A practical, down to earth life, hand in hand with universal wisdom. For many years I was able to dissolve and heal sabotaging, self-destructive and abusive behaviours and let the true me come to the fore.
So what we choose - whether to react or respond - is up to us. We choose whether to take the simple, direct, and honest route or the comfortable, complicated, repetitive& reproducing route. Offers from the outside - to distinguish between them as inspiration or manipulation - we can only understand on the inside.
For me there is nothing more beautiful than to sense and support the purity and essence of a person. To strengthen the connection to the inner being and to live. Without protection, perfection or justification just because you are. We are all mirrors for one another, what kind of mirror are you?